Tuesday, September 30, 2008
It’s killing me. I would totally forget about his absence if not for the fact that I miss having him around. Even my sister asked me why he hasn’t been visiting lately!
I have been trying to meet up with him but I never had any luck. I’m not even sure anymore if I still want to have “The Talk” with him because honestly, I’m not sure if I still care. Sure I miss him but I don’t think I can put up with the absence if ever we do decide to move on further and be together.
Am I making any sense? I just need to know.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
I've confessed to my friends before that one day I will be homeless and will have nothing to eat but all the while wearing very nice clothes. Can you imagine a homeless person lying on the street with aviator sunglasses on clad in Zara, Topman and company? Homeless chic much?
Ugh. No, I can't let that happen until I wear Burberry (Prorsum or not), Dior Homme, Comme des Garcons, Lanvin and the rest of the gang. Until then, I just hate being poor.
Today, I was so bored I think it turned into depression. And it's not good when I'm bored because I tend to either "hang out" with strangers or spend. I wasn't in the mood to hook up with people I barely know so I decided to go out with friends.
I hung out with H and Ellese at Greenbelt. H and I hit up Greenbelt 5 first and my god do I love this place. While I'm still too poor to shop at the more high end stores, thanks to Zara, I won't be eating lunch for weeks.
It's big and black and it's another impulsive purchase. I will post pictures as soon as I take it out. For now, it's 4 AM and I need to catch some Zs. Good night.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
This is at Bigby's Iloilo with Shey, my regular pertner in whining, dining and all things crazy. Bitch has been single ever since the world began (remember that song? lol) so if you know anyone interested... Kidding.
I love Bigby's. The place is nice and the food is simple and good. Bigby's is located in Iloilo's prime nightlife hub Smallville.
The Nos of Smallville
No Dirnking/Dating. Do not be cheap on the park/parking area side walk.
What reunion is complete without cam-whoring? Joenessa and Yala, we miss you. Please call/text soon.
Shey is wearing the uber fab sunglasses I gifted her while I'm wearing the shirt given by Rica earlier that day.As you can see, my hotel room is quite crappy. Note to self: do not fall for promo rates and just because it includes buffet breakfast, it doesn't mean it's a good deal.
The next two pictures are completely off topic but whatev.
Meet my band singer, single mother bitch friend, Cassandra. The picture was taken outside our house when she came over to show off her bang (or is bangs?).
This one was taken outside the Roxas City Cathedral with some good friends from high school.
I only wanted to stay in Iloilo for a night but I had to extend my stay for another night at the last minute thanks to the following people.
Here's me and look with Myleen at the Globe shop in SM City, Iloilo.
Apres JD, we walked to Coffee Break. What I love about Iloilo is the food is good and inexpensive and everything is nearby. You can practically walk around the city.
This picture was taken just right before I got off the plane in Manila when I got back. The pretty girl is Tintin, another friend from high school who is a member of the Mile High Club. Kidding. Little did I know I was up for some major shit (read: lost luggage) a few minutes this picture was taken.
And there you have it. I wish I can go home again soon. For now, I'm back to dealing with all things Manila.
M and I haven't seen each other yet. He's been sick ever since he got back from his wake boarding trip. I hope we see each other soon so we can talk and set things straight. I want to know whether there is something between us or I should just move on and start seeing other guys. I hate the gray area.
Friday, September 19, 2008
As I was having my 3 PM lunch right after I hit the gym today, I received a text message from this guy I met in Boracay during my vacation. Well, we just exchanged messages, smiled and nodded at each other so I don't know if you can call that meeting up.
Anyway, he's in town and he wanted to meet up. His name's Rob and he owns a small restaurant in the island which also has a branch here in Manila.
Rob asked what I was up to. I told him I'm going to MOA just to look around and maybe do the groceries. Then the conversation went on...
Rob: Why don't you come to my condo in Makati instead?
Me: Are you trying to have sex with me?
Rob: Yeah, hope it's working.
Rob: Ooh, was that a bad reply?
Me: Well, I'm not sure.
Normally, I'd jump right in since he's pretty cute and I really had nothing important to do but take care of the bills. But the thing is, I have been seeing someone, aka M, for a month now. I didn't talk so much about it here because I was not sure where it's heading. Frankly, I still have no idea what will come of it.
M and I have been dating, cavorting and what not but we haven't really talked about our relationship, if ever there is one. He had made it clear though he's okay with me having sex with other people.
So what's the problem you ask? Well, I don't feel comfortable with the set-up which is why I sent a text message to M (who is currently on a wake boarding trip to Bicol) telling him about Rob.
Rob told me sex was not mandatory and I can always leave just as long as we meet up so I told him I'll drop by. M on other hand, was not responding and I figured he was still on the road because I couldn't contact him. I was determined not to give in until...
M: It's up to you. No problem with me. Tell me about it ha.
After receiving that message, I felt weak and down. So by the time I met up with Rob, I had let go of myself and put my guards down. I could have refused, but I didn't. Had M shown though the slightest signs that he didn't want me to do it, I wouldn't have met up with Rob at all. But it seemed he couldn't care less and that upsets me.
Now, I wonder if M was just testing me or something. Nonetheless, Rob was great while we were both high with libido. But once we got over it, it was just another meaningless romp.
After my early evening delight, I had my walk of shame to Greenbelt. I thought about what had happened over a caramel frappe and a cinnamon swirl while text messaging my good friend H non-stop.
I also told M about what I have done and he seems to remain fine with it. But I'm not. Am I just some guy he hangs out with and nothing more? Are we just friends with benefits? I hope not because I have enough of those. We really need to have "the talk" when he gets back. Until then, I have no idea what we are or if there's a "we" at all.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Gawd, the memories. I really had loads of fun. I always have whenever I'm in Boracay. This place casts a spell on you. It's a love affair.
Anyway, enough with the Bora experience. Let's talk about the stuff I wore so you can stop reading now if this kind of shit annoys you.
First night: Where's my gondola?
The hat is from Diego, the shirt is from Topman matched with chinos from Bill Blass plus Havaianas and vintage beads from my mom.
Second night: Repeat Offender
I loved the chinos so much I had to wear them again the following night with the same accessories paired with a Folded and Hung tank top.
Morning Swim: 80s Dancer
The tank top is from Bench. The trunks are from Philosophy. The bandanna is from Human and the sunnies are vintage, again, from my mom.
Sunset Dip: One Piece. Period.
The board shorts are from Mambo. I look fat. I know. It's a work in progress. Shut up.
This is the Greek salad I had at Hey Jude. I barely finished half of it. It's probably just me but I was *this* close to vomiting just before I decided to stop. At least now I know what not to order in a Mediterranean restaurant.
Then we went to MO2 at the Regency Hotel because I knew some members of the band playing. They even sang Happy Birthday to me! After that, we headed to Hey Jude for our DJ music fix. I was too busy dancing to take pictures though.
Can you tell I went boozing and dancing? Jammers is just beside Hey Jude. I just had to try one of their widely popular burgers. Yummers!
More narcissism and vacation pictures later...